JEALOUSY 

Anytime someone I'm dating mentions someone they used to love

in a semi-nostalgic or non-cynical way

I immediately want to drive my car head-first into a swamp full of battery acid

ruining Christmas for everyone!!!

it’s so unreasonable to be afraid

of so many sad and distant women

who have escaped into the future

only occasionally looking back through their naturally thick eyelashes

when I think about the possibility

the person I’m currently with has ever been remotely romantically interested

in another person ever

I felt a great self-antagonism

for being the kind of woman who came afterwards

like a bad sequel with a higher budget

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O I feel sorry for the people I love and where it is I'm taking them

because I don’t think I’m good enough

I think it’s okay to admit the people you love are better than you

I wouldn’t date anyone who wasn’t

imagine dating someone worse than yourself on purpose

that’s the kind of fucked up thing only everyone I’ve ever loved would do